Thanksgiving 2018

It could’ve been worse! 2018 brought perils of its own in the New Year. Robert’s health declined, and he had to quit his job on Feb. 06th. March 20th he had a widow maker heart attack at the hospital emergency room and was taken into surgery where stents were used; the hospital wanted $18 thousand down to do the heart surgery- the emergency heart attack made them forgo the requirement and admit him into the hospital. We had to make some hard and fast decisions about our finances liquidating assets to survive on while keeping our home. We don’t have … Continue reading Thanksgiving 2018

An Ode to Alcohol

You let me say whatever I thought, you gave me courage when I fought, you came before relationships that I sought, and even food when I bought. You lied to me when you said you were my friend, You couldn’t see the pain on their faces that you caused, Or smell the alcohol on your breath as you cursed and blamed and shamed yourself. You were my everything, and now my body is wasted and my enlarged heart is very small as I take my last breath while drinking you- alcohol.   I           Continue reading An Ode to Alcohol

3 Bones About It

Reba McIntire said, “You need a wishbone, a backbone, and a funnybone” to be successful. My wishbone is telling me that I want my family to happy, healthy, and wise, spiritually and physically. If I could wave a magic wand and wish all my bills paid, good health, and mental wisdom, I wouldn’t use it. It is bad that allows us to see the good. It is not the struggle that defines us, but the result of the struggle.  I would prefer to have a wisdom all the time, but there is something good to be said about exploring an … Continue reading 3 Bones About It

Seasonal-affective-disorder

Seasonal-affective-disorder (SAD) is the pits.  I have the fall version of SAD and it is difficult to function. Having Bipolar (schizoaffective-disorder) and Major Depressive Disorder is making my symptoms worse. I have depression that ranges from sleep deprivation to excessive sleeping.  Last Sunday, I slept all day- getting up to take a shower after my daughter thoroughly made me angry about being SAD.  She goes through this every Fall with me and see’s me sink into depression and apathy.  So she deliberately goaded me trying to get me to snap out of it.  Well, it worked… after I got over … Continue reading Seasonal-affective-disorder